assalam. guwa tak pasti belog guwa ni ada orang nak baca ke tidak tp, err tak kisahlah. guwa nak buat post jugak since ni satu satunya medium yang boleh buat guwa tak serabut otak dan mengganggu sistem kumbahan guwa. haha.
heh. dalam blogpost sebelum ni guwa macam ada tersebut pasal lima golden rules kan. so harini guwa nak bercerita laa pasal golden rules guwa ni.
ekceli, takde siapa pun yang tahu kewujudan golden rules ni. even not my besties incik Oppa, Omma Halila dan semua lah. ni je first time dlm sejarah guwa reveal kewujudan golden rules guwa ni.
sejarahnya, golden rules ni tercipta hasil drp perasaan frust tergolek terhumban guwa terhadap first love guwa, LeeLee. that time i was 18. baru nak masuk part 2 asasi undang undang. sebelum ni zaman sekolah adalah guwa crush situ sana sini, skandal sini sana situ. tp takdelah serious. tp dengan mamat bertuah comel ni jelah yg guwa seriousnya. huii jangan tak tahu, siap plan tu acah acah nak amek master sama sama lepas kahwin. bhahaha dasat gila doh. in short, sayang gila jugak laa and when it ended, guwa meroyan agak lama. dia punya tahap frust tu perghh makan tahun. dalam 3 tahun gak laa guwa tunggu dia ni. degree sem 3 which is after 2 tahun baru kitorang bercakap and tegur semula macam biasa. perasaan tu mmg ada. menyesal, suka, sayang, marah semua ada tp after sem 3 tu guwa dan dia pun da boleh content perasaan tu. and kawan jelah macam biasa walaupun sgt jarang bertegur.
okay, menyimpang. berbalik kepada apam balik, lepas je clash dgn dia tu, guwa sumpah jadi kosong gila. takde perasaan kat sesape walaupun banyak yg test line. so nak dijadikan cerita, guwa develop satu perasaan ni; perasaan nk mainkan semua orang. berperasaan nak membuayakan diri so semua akan rasa sakit frust bercinta camne yg guwa rasa. jahat? memang pun. haha. lepas break tu mmg tak dinafikan guwa agak jahat. rebel sana sini, dan kuat berjoli. bukan pegi clubbing headbang semua tu. joli in terms of guwa suka berjalan sorang sorang. pegi kl sorang sorang semata mata sebab bosan. pegi tengok konsert Mystery Jets sorang sorang, tengok teater kt KLPac sorang sorang. ada laa time tu best guyfriends guwa akan teman contoh pegi konsert paramore ke, pegi tengok Sigur Ross ke. yang macam bahaya sikit crowdnya tu adalah Kurt datang teman.
Ya Allah, menyimpang lagi! okay. golden rules ni fungsinya adalah sebagai defence mechanism guwa supaya guwa dapat membuayakan diri (*read: playboy, mainkan hati lelaki) dengan jayanya dan utk mengelakkan sebarang emotional attachment and frustration.
Rules #1 : never speak of your true feelings.
tak kisah ah korang rasa jijik ke, rasa dia tak hensem ke, rasa dia ni skema sgt ke sampai rambut belah tengah, butang baju sampai ke dagu, or korang mmg totally smitten dgn dia eg: dia hensem gila, baik gila, korang rindu dia ke apa. Don't Say It. just don't. guwa takkan puji walaupun adalah sorang ni dulu hensem mcm henry golding doh. guwa takkan ckp apa yg guwa rasa sbb once kau jujur tentang perasaan kau, unconsciously kau sebenarnya da buat emotional ties dgn dia. so, if plan kau just nak membuaya, buat apa nak confess apa apa. takpayah nak jujur sgt lah! (*gelak jahat). dan lagi, when we play hard to catch and hard to read, lagilah lelaki kejar. well, we need to maintain the market kan? (*sila muntah pelangi sekarang)
Rules#2 : remember important dates
haha. ingat girls je ke mengada nak kena ingat bila birthday, bila fist time date, bila first time jumpa? eh lelaki pun sama kott. always remember important dates. ni selalu guwa save dlm calendar fon. haha. buat reminder bila birthday dia. sbb bila kita ingat, dia akan rasa kita cares. so dia akan sentiasa rasa smitten dgn kita. lalala.
Rules#3 : observe and do what he likes
dia suka lagu The Strokes? well, kau cuba search
lagu tu kat youtube, then cakap "awak taw tak lagu Last Night by The Strokes tu? sedap. sy suka gila." Dia suka kanak kanak? cuba post gambar pegang baby kat twitter. dia suka makan laksa, cakap kau tengah belajar masak laksa dari mama. kompom dia smitten dgn kau. norma manusia, mereka akan cari persamaan to make compatibility. bila dia rasa macam banyak gila benda sama yg kau suka, dia suka, dia akan fikir korang ada chemistry. sedangkan hakikatnya..hahaha (*guwa mmg jahat gila dulu. i'm a very bad person. faker, pretender, back then)
Rules#4 : never put sentimental values on people
well. sentimental value ye. susah nak terangkan bab ni sebab guwa baru je break rules#4 ni semalam. sentimental values ni mcm, kau samakan dia dengan ex boyfriend kau. kau nak kat dia, sebab dia seiras dgn ex kau. susahlah camtu. bila kau letak sentimental value, kau susah nak move on. to play safe, don't do it.
Rules#5 : lu pikir laa sendiri
yes, guwa tak melawak. kena pikir sendiri mengikut situasi sbb manusia ni lain lain attitudenya. so utk #5 mmg takde concrete rules. kau kena adapt and adopt. okay. nanti aku cerita lagi. busy ni. haha bye.
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Monday, September 15, 2014
notes of nonsense #126: persoalan eksistensialis dalam diri
assalam. hai. lama tak menaip. sebab guwa da lama takde laptop and hidup guwa totally dependant on tab semata mata. tak tahu kenapa guwa start menulis semula. padahal tak best kott menulis pakai tab. sakit kepala tahu?
haha. sebenarnya guwa da nak mansuhkan aje blog sampah ni. eh ingat akta hasutan je ke yg nak kena mansuh? blog ni pun bole jugak. haha. tapi since 3, 4 hari ni guwa agak serabut otak, so tu sebabnya guwa menulis semula.
guwa ada satu persoalan. kau sayangkan seseorang ni. terlalu sayang bagai nak gila. but on one incident, you makes him so mad and he left. you and him didn't talk for years. removed from friendlist fb, request friends pun ignored. then sampai satu tahap, kau rasa pasrah je pada takdir. kau biarkan saje takdir yg tentukan destiny korang walaupun hati korang sumpah tersiat. you distanced yourselves from each other, on reason yg korang nak tanamkan rasa benci dlm diri korang but the moment of truth is, korang sebenarnya berharap yg korang berdua menjalani hubungan tu mcm biasa, macam dulu. berjoli katak malam malam kat chow kit tengok mat rempit and belen, share snack plate makan berdua, baring kat kfc sambil selfie depan webcam, berlaga kepala dekat eskalator time square, acah acah tiger dance dalam ktm. you know, do things that makes you happy, makes you alive, makes you, the real you. orang yg sayangkan kau, who loves you before you had everything, who loves you for simply being you. who show you sunshine when all you had left is only shadows this one people, who so believe in you that you started to believe in yourself again.
guwa ada sorang ni. that makes me feel that way. dlm byk2 person dlm hidup aku, dia laa aku punya archilles heels, dan juga kekuatan aku. satu satunya insan yg aku tak boleh pandang tepat pada mata, yg guwa jd speechless bila berkata, yg sentiasa buat aku rasa hidup dlm ertikata sebenar. no hypocritsy, selfless, immense. even buat benda simple dgn dia, melepak dkt mamak minum milo ais and makan roti telur, aku rasa, bahagia sgt2. dia satu satunya orang yg boleh buat my heart sings when i'm with him.
aku sendiri sebenarnya tak faham dgn relationship ni. cuma aku harap, ia takkan berakhir. aku sendir pun takley nak name what type of relationship that we had at this time. yg penting, apa yg aku rasa, saya sayang awak bagai nak gila. i thought i already removed you in my life, tapi ekceli, tolak semua ego dan super ego aku, kau adalah id aku. dan kaulah kunci id aku. let us be honest. aku berkawan dgn ramai org. but sebenarnya org yg terpilih rapat dgn aku, mesti ada karekteristik kau here and there. mata, cara jalan, rambut, the way he smiles, suara, etc etc.
aku taktaw apa rasa kau pada aku, tp apa yg aku rasa pd kau is, you makes me happy beyond everything and anything. you makes me feel alive. dengan kau, aku boleh jadi Fara, yg suka pakai skinny dgn shirt dan sneakers. yg suka lawan cakap, yg suka tergolek terbalik dlm ktm, yg mulut murai and forever suka mendera kau. haha. dgn kau adalah saat aku tak hipokrit, tak cuba berlakon utk jadi org lain. aku tak payah ubah apa apa pun dgn kau.takpayah nakpakai dress, nak ckp slow slow bagai. haha. awak stu je manusia yg boleh buat sy bercakap dlm tone menjerit. excited nye pasal.
awak, i'm so attached to you, sub-consciously. yes, saya ada lima golden rules of buaya-ism. camne nak repel people. golden rules yg selama ni sy praktis as defence mechanism sy supaya sy tak attach emotionally dgn sesiapa. tp dgn awk, my golden rules is rubbish. because here, deepest part of my heart, you're already tattooed there. sy jd buaya, ramai crush here and there, semata mata sbb nak fulfill gap yg awk tinggalkan dlm sini. i tried years after years to replace you, jd org lain, but you still there. irreplaceable.
bila jadi buaya, kenal macam macam jenis orang, sy jd lost dgn golden rules yg sy cipta sendiri. sy jadi taktaw apa yg sy nak. oh that guy there, comel. ada iras awk pd rambut. oh that dude here,wow mata sepet like you. nampak tak sy da letakkan awk as characteristic dm sy berkawan dgn org?
i've put sentimental value on people. and that value is you. and here i am. lost. mencari awak. menidakkan awak. i want you, but i'm not gonna say that i want you.cause i fear that you will reject me. again and again. yes, ni perasaan paling bangang dan celaka sekali. my golden rules is destroying me. aku lost sbb banyak sgt deny attachment aku pd kau.
haha. padan muka aku. losing you, losing myself, jd buaya tanpa arah tuju. greed is good. but it is you that i want but can't get. haha. sy sayang awak bagai nak gila. then, now always. did you feel the same about me?
"now tell me, kita berdua ni sama je kan? kita berdua tak tahu apa yg kita nak,"
"hmm, we're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. running at the same old ground, and what have we found? same old fear."
kau nak. dia nak. tapi kau dan dia takut utk ambil peluang. takut pd circumstances yg mendatang. arghh ni adalah perasaan paling celaka pernah aku rasa setakat ini.
haha. sebenarnya guwa da nak mansuhkan aje blog sampah ni. eh ingat akta hasutan je ke yg nak kena mansuh? blog ni pun bole jugak. haha. tapi since 3, 4 hari ni guwa agak serabut otak, so tu sebabnya guwa menulis semula.
guwa ada satu persoalan. kau sayangkan seseorang ni. terlalu sayang bagai nak gila. but on one incident, you makes him so mad and he left. you and him didn't talk for years. removed from friendlist fb, request friends pun ignored. then sampai satu tahap, kau rasa pasrah je pada takdir. kau biarkan saje takdir yg tentukan destiny korang walaupun hati korang sumpah tersiat. you distanced yourselves from each other, on reason yg korang nak tanamkan rasa benci dlm diri korang but the moment of truth is, korang sebenarnya berharap yg korang berdua menjalani hubungan tu mcm biasa, macam dulu. berjoli katak malam malam kat chow kit tengok mat rempit and belen, share snack plate makan berdua, baring kat kfc sambil selfie depan webcam, berlaga kepala dekat eskalator time square, acah acah tiger dance dalam ktm. you know, do things that makes you happy, makes you alive, makes you, the real you. orang yg sayangkan kau, who loves you before you had everything, who loves you for simply being you. who show you sunshine when all you had left is only shadows this one people, who so believe in you that you started to believe in yourself again.
guwa ada sorang ni. that makes me feel that way. dlm byk2 person dlm hidup aku, dia laa aku punya archilles heels, dan juga kekuatan aku. satu satunya insan yg aku tak boleh pandang tepat pada mata, yg guwa jd speechless bila berkata, yg sentiasa buat aku rasa hidup dlm ertikata sebenar. no hypocritsy, selfless, immense. even buat benda simple dgn dia, melepak dkt mamak minum milo ais and makan roti telur, aku rasa, bahagia sgt2. dia satu satunya orang yg boleh buat my heart sings when i'm with him.
aku sendiri sebenarnya tak faham dgn relationship ni. cuma aku harap, ia takkan berakhir. aku sendir pun takley nak name what type of relationship that we had at this time. yg penting, apa yg aku rasa, saya sayang awak bagai nak gila. i thought i already removed you in my life, tapi ekceli, tolak semua ego dan super ego aku, kau adalah id aku. dan kaulah kunci id aku. let us be honest. aku berkawan dgn ramai org. but sebenarnya org yg terpilih rapat dgn aku, mesti ada karekteristik kau here and there. mata, cara jalan, rambut, the way he smiles, suara, etc etc.
aku taktaw apa rasa kau pada aku, tp apa yg aku rasa pd kau is, you makes me happy beyond everything and anything. you makes me feel alive. dengan kau, aku boleh jadi Fara, yg suka pakai skinny dgn shirt dan sneakers. yg suka lawan cakap, yg suka tergolek terbalik dlm ktm, yg mulut murai and forever suka mendera kau. haha. dgn kau adalah saat aku tak hipokrit, tak cuba berlakon utk jadi org lain. aku tak payah ubah apa apa pun dgn kau.takpayah nakpakai dress, nak ckp slow slow bagai. haha. awak stu je manusia yg boleh buat sy bercakap dlm tone menjerit. excited nye pasal.
awak, i'm so attached to you, sub-consciously. yes, saya ada lima golden rules of buaya-ism. camne nak repel people. golden rules yg selama ni sy praktis as defence mechanism sy supaya sy tak attach emotionally dgn sesiapa. tp dgn awk, my golden rules is rubbish. because here, deepest part of my heart, you're already tattooed there. sy jd buaya, ramai crush here and there, semata mata sbb nak fulfill gap yg awk tinggalkan dlm sini. i tried years after years to replace you, jd org lain, but you still there. irreplaceable.
bila jadi buaya, kenal macam macam jenis orang, sy jd lost dgn golden rules yg sy cipta sendiri. sy jadi taktaw apa yg sy nak. oh that guy there, comel. ada iras awk pd rambut. oh that dude here,wow mata sepet like you. nampak tak sy da letakkan awk as characteristic dm sy berkawan dgn org?
i've put sentimental value on people. and that value is you. and here i am. lost. mencari awak. menidakkan awak. i want you, but i'm not gonna say that i want you.cause i fear that you will reject me. again and again. yes, ni perasaan paling bangang dan celaka sekali. my golden rules is destroying me. aku lost sbb banyak sgt deny attachment aku pd kau.
haha. padan muka aku. losing you, losing myself, jd buaya tanpa arah tuju. greed is good. but it is you that i want but can't get. haha. sy sayang awak bagai nak gila. then, now always. did you feel the same about me?
"now tell me, kita berdua ni sama je kan? kita berdua tak tahu apa yg kita nak,"
"hmm, we're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. running at the same old ground, and what have we found? same old fear."
kau nak. dia nak. tapi kau dan dia takut utk ambil peluang. takut pd circumstances yg mendatang. arghh ni adalah perasaan paling celaka pernah aku rasa setakat ini.
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
notes of nonsense #125: human
assalammualaikum. *tiup habuk* lama gila kot rasanya tak hapdet belog sampah ni dengan sampah baru ye dak? muehehe. busy meneruskan hidup. busy survive. pehh ayat taknak drama kan.
okaylah. guwa menaip ni ponn sebab arini kat tempat kerja tak busy, tak banyak benda dan order boleh dibuat. guwa siap berjogging dalam opis, makan bekpes, buat nestum entah berapa round sampai naik kembung perut ni. tak jugak ada kerja. eh, btw guwa sekarang wanita berkerjaya anggun bergaya chuols. haha. bergaya laa sangat kan. tapi bolehlah. wardrobe guwa dah ditransform dengan jayanya. takde dah skinny jeans lusuh2, tshirt kartu kartun tu sejak menjebakkan diri dalam arus fesyen semasa ni. kah. cuma kekadang datang lazy days tu, terbabas jugak laa guwa datang kerja dengan jeans super lusuh dengan band tees.
live guwa sekarang? well. alhamdulillah. busy tapi guwa rasa bahagia. even banyak jugak perkara sedih berlaku akhir akhir ni. like, pre mid-life crisis - kena tinggal dengan bestfren, masalah kerja, masalah study. kadang kadang guwa rasa nak give up pun ada, rasa macam nak jalan kaki, stop kat tengah jejantas seksyen 7 tu pastu terjun atas lori kontena, bajet macam Angelina Jolie dalam citer Wanted. haha. kalau tak kuat iman, kalau tak ingat dekat Ma dan Pa, guwa rasa gila jugak guwa sensorang kat sini. dala sekarang tengah cuti Gawai. student semua almost all balik kecuali guwa. sedih tak sedih tak? nasib baik ada Khun dengan Jeb, monyet merah yang guwa angkat drp Encik Nik. guwa tengah berfikir fikir lagi nak bela pet dalam bilik. maybe sugar glider ataupun hamster since semalam masa otw balik kerja, guwa nampak ada kedai jual pet dah bukak kat tepi Giant tu. hehe.
berbalik kepada apam balik, tujuan guwa bukak balik belog ni is to dedicate something to someone. yelah, belog guwa ni kan banyak buat dedikasi kasih sayang sejak zaman letusan Big Bang lagi. kah.
"i hope, our relationship will be better after this. saya bekerja, awak pun bekerja. saya nak juggle between kerja and belajar. so saya minta maaf sekiranya saya dah tak dapat dengan awak selalu, tak dapat nak mesej, nak whatsapp semua. keluar pun dah jarang. not like i'm lacking passion or what not. saya cuma, sibuk dan penat. i trust you. i trust you to take this well. kita sama sama dah besar. biarlah hubungan kita ni lebih matang. saya tahu limit saya, dan saya harap, awak begitu juga. hanya Allah sebaik baik penjaga. ingat Allah, jangan lupa baca Al Quran yang saya hadiahkan dulu tu. saya tahu murah tapi, bukan kena bayar pun kan kalau appreciate hadiah tu. dapat pahala lagi. hehe. may Allah bless us and our family too. may Allah ease our path. if tak ease pun, biarlah Dia jadikan kita cukup kuat untuk menghadapi dugaanNya. Amin. much love, bubu Arissa"
ahh guwa dah start busy balik. so bye. tata. see you next time. :*
okaylah. guwa menaip ni ponn sebab arini kat tempat kerja tak busy, tak banyak benda dan order boleh dibuat. guwa siap berjogging dalam opis, makan bekpes, buat nestum entah berapa round sampai naik kembung perut ni. tak jugak ada kerja. eh, btw guwa sekarang wanita berkerjaya anggun bergaya chuols. haha. bergaya laa sangat kan. tapi bolehlah. wardrobe guwa dah ditransform dengan jayanya. takde dah skinny jeans lusuh2, tshirt kartu kartun tu sejak menjebakkan diri dalam arus fesyen semasa ni. kah. cuma kekadang datang lazy days tu, terbabas jugak laa guwa datang kerja dengan jeans super lusuh dengan band tees.
live guwa sekarang? well. alhamdulillah. busy tapi guwa rasa bahagia. even banyak jugak perkara sedih berlaku akhir akhir ni. like, pre mid-life crisis - kena tinggal dengan bestfren, masalah kerja, masalah study. kadang kadang guwa rasa nak give up pun ada, rasa macam nak jalan kaki, stop kat tengah jejantas seksyen 7 tu pastu terjun atas lori kontena, bajet macam Angelina Jolie dalam citer Wanted. haha. kalau tak kuat iman, kalau tak ingat dekat Ma dan Pa, guwa rasa gila jugak guwa sensorang kat sini. dala sekarang tengah cuti Gawai. student semua almost all balik kecuali guwa. sedih tak sedih tak? nasib baik ada Khun dengan Jeb, monyet merah yang guwa angkat drp Encik Nik. guwa tengah berfikir fikir lagi nak bela pet dalam bilik. maybe sugar glider ataupun hamster since semalam masa otw balik kerja, guwa nampak ada kedai jual pet dah bukak kat tepi Giant tu. hehe.
berbalik kepada apam balik, tujuan guwa bukak balik belog ni is to dedicate something to someone. yelah, belog guwa ni kan banyak buat dedikasi kasih sayang sejak zaman letusan Big Bang lagi. kah.
"i hope, our relationship will be better after this. saya bekerja, awak pun bekerja. saya nak juggle between kerja and belajar. so saya minta maaf sekiranya saya dah tak dapat dengan awak selalu, tak dapat nak mesej, nak whatsapp semua. keluar pun dah jarang. not like i'm lacking passion or what not. saya cuma, sibuk dan penat. i trust you. i trust you to take this well. kita sama sama dah besar. biarlah hubungan kita ni lebih matang. saya tahu limit saya, dan saya harap, awak begitu juga. hanya Allah sebaik baik penjaga. ingat Allah, jangan lupa baca Al Quran yang saya hadiahkan dulu tu. saya tahu murah tapi, bukan kena bayar pun kan kalau appreciate hadiah tu. dapat pahala lagi. hehe. may Allah bless us and our family too. may Allah ease our path. if tak ease pun, biarlah Dia jadikan kita cukup kuat untuk menghadapi dugaanNya. Amin. much love, bubu Arissa"
ahh guwa dah start busy balik. so bye. tata. see you next time. :*
Friday, January 10, 2014
notes of nonsense #124: history of a drama princess with her skincare
assalam. oke, lama gila rasa private belog. tak rasa nak menulis ekceli. and taknak stalkers tertunggu tunggu bila guwa nak write post. sebab tu pivate blog. tapi since end of sem is around the corner and fact that now i'm having final exams, which is i'm not having classes and nak mengurangkan kebosanan asek nak baca buku and study (*study ke?), terlintas laa pulak nak buat timeline of my history with skincare. ala ala product review jugak laa. takde gambar, sebab malas nak transfer pictures dari google nor henfon. :P
1. Safi Skincare Range - first cleanser guwa is Safi Balqis. the one that for whitening tuu. pernah try whole range of Safi Gamat, Safi Aloe Vera. semua Safi laa. start pakai masa Form 1 (*kott?). sebab mama yang introduce since start masuk high school, muka guwa berminyak gila macam kuali roti canai. and even can masak roti canai pakai minyak kat muka guwa ni haa. (*ayat taknak kalah. gebang itu perlu). antara yang terlama guwa pakai. dari form 1, stop sekejap time form 4, pastu sambung balik until degree sem 1. which is until i'm 19 years old. so far, oke je. decent cleanser. tak buat muka berminyak, tak rasa tegang, tak rasa drying ponn lepas basuh. tapi discontinue use masa sem 2 degree sebab kulit muka rasa panas and jerawat tumbuh macam pokok senduduk. sebab kulit rosak i guess. sem 2 da start kawad kaki and overdose of sun exposure. so the product when applied did stung my face, and resulted in more damages and breakouts. maybe Safi did cancels my sunblock. tu yang muka jadi teruk. mostly because tak sesuai dengan keadaan kulit guwa masa tu. and so, stop pakai and bermula laa perjalanan mencari "The Ultimate Cleanser".
2. Himalaya Neem Face Wash - oke, setakat guwa hidup berapa tahun kat atas planet bumi ni, guwa rasa ni antara cleanser yang terlama guwa pakai after Safi. guwa pakai masa Form 4. used 1 large tube of its cleanser untuk combat acne. before this, takde pimples sangat. just oily skin and Safi can handle oiliness quite well. but masa form 4, maybe stress duduk kat class pure science, learning those bios and chemy and darn physics, jerawat naik mengganas macam raksasa gorgon. gantung kejap Safi, and pakai Himalaya. well, quite good. in few days (*around 5 days), can see the differences already. jerawat da start turun, and kulit jadi sejuk (* ohh btw, i had this kulit rasa macam panas and tingly when i had pimples or acnes), so bila pakai Himalaya, kulit rasa sejuk je. this was during form 4 laa. sekarang guwa still pakai Himalaya. same range, same cleanser. but i just found out that the effectiveness changes. or it just me? same cleanser but da tak berapa nak berkesan. used for long time but why did i feel my pimples and my scars are getting visible? dulu rasa macam pimple scar tak berapa nak visible, but nowadays, pergi bilik member, they just 'faa, muka kau kenapa? macam makin teruk je?'. and i was ultimately speechless. sebab rasanya sem ni antara sem yang paling banyak guwa menjga kulit guwa. berapa round guwa beli lotion sebab nak jaga kulit. haha. and, mostly visible aftermath effects are, kulit guwa jadi sensitive gila beby, flushed face (*merah around the blush spot), scarring more visible, skin became taut and dry. the blush effects tuu guwa tak kisah sangat. sebab nampak cam comel laa pulak kulit pink pink beby gittew. (*comel? sila muntah pelangi sekarang). tapi what matter most is that shitty sensitive dry facial skin. which is teruk. bayangkan kau kulit kering, but kau tak boleh buat pape, not even tampal moisturizer sebab kulit akan react aggressively. not even can change to other cleanser, sebab kulit akan react and brokeout. bukan takat cleanser je, memang da tak boleh buat pape un. tak boleh pakai moisturizer, tak ley pakai bedak sejuk, tak ley pakai seaweed mask, takley nak spray thermal water etc. just boleh tepek bedak semata mata untuk pergi kuliah. it hurts my pride and face so much. TT_TT (*in fact, guwa even bagi separuh barang mekap guwa kat mama. hadn't have too much makeups though. only some eyeliners, powder cake and some bb creams, rarely used). lepas sensitif skin tragedy tuu, guwa still tak tukar lagi. sebab takde idea nak tukar brand apa, and fear of getting more sensitive if i change product. lagiponn, a few weeks after that tragedy, guwa pergi farmasi and beli Evening Primrose Oil capsule. so sensitivity and flare ups tuu significantly berkurang and guwa happy. sekarang still stick lagi dengan Himalaya, but reading reviews and getting ready to toss it up. ohh yes, this cleanser is gel-type, so it doesn't foam much. i did double rinse when i did use BB cream beforehand, just to feel this 'squeaky clean' feel. just to ensure traces of BB didn't clogged up my pores and broke my skin later.
3. Spray Type Mist - my first spray will be Bio Essence Miracle Bio Water. love it to the max! sangat berkesan. refreshing, set up my powder, reduce shine and makes my panda eyes less visible. since guwa pakai BB cream often (*mostly when i'm out having classes and tutors and replacement classes, depending on my mood), sometime tertepek banyak pulak BB creams nye. so end up having this fake and cakey face. so, nak set up balik BB tuu, guwa akan spray Bio Water ni. sekejap je, ka-ching! dewy faces! and guwa pakai lepas berjemur matahari. and malam malam kalau malas nak letak seaweed mask, guwa spray je benda ni. and kadang kadang kalau malas, spray, tepek powder johnson tu pastu jalan. convenient an? just spray and go. sebabkan terlampau konvinien tulaa benda ni cepat habis. tempting dohh. even muka tak berminyak ponn rasa nak spray je sebab nak rasa sejuk and glowing dewy effects tu. sekarang, benda ni da 3 minggu habis, takde duit nak beli. sobs. and the sad fact is, guwa gamble beli SimplySiti White & Detox Mist Toner over this one when i had money to buy it. and i regret for not buying Miracle Water. haritu, keluar beli stok makanan dekat SACC. then masuk Watson. niat memang nak beli Miracle Water but then, tengok shelf alamak.. RM23.90. takde offer. first buy dulu which was 3 months back then, bought it at RM19.90 dekat Fahrenheit. masa tuu keluar dengan Encik Ehem. tapi rasa macam mahal je dekat SACC ni an. pastu terpandang pulak SimplySiti ni. packaging cantik, pink gittew, besaw murah pulak (*100ml for Rm19). guwa ponn ka-ching, beli and pakai. and, i'm not into it. menyesal sungguh. the mist is kinda sticky on my face, it didn't make my skin dewy nor refresh it. all i felt is oiliness and stickiness. maybe sebab content dia differ with my other products kott. da terbiasa pakai thermal water, tetiba spray mist yang contains all niacinamide, green tea, honey tuu, so kulit guwa rasa berat. and i felt unclean. and zits starts to popped out, again. during this time, i went on vacation with my family around area Pangkor and Cameron Highland. cuaca agak sejuk and banyak exposed to aircond. spray this mist, but still went sticky and face went shiny all over like sambal nasi lemak terlebih minyak. don't like it and not going to repurchase it. but still, i favor SimplySiti product. just this range, doesn't suit me. better opt for the old thermal water kott.
4. Loreal Perfect White Milky Cleanser - best. used 2 tubes of this. ohh first time beli masa kat Giant seksyen 7, masa tu keluar makan dengan Ehem. singgah guardian and nampak product ni on sale. since cleanser ponn da habis, and nak cepat, rembat jelaa mende alah ni. malas nak cari mana Himalaya. ohh yes, its a foaming cleanser but i wonder, ni lagi cepat habis dari my Himalaya gel cleanser. sebab tu sempat guna sampai 2 tube. applied too much kott? loreal is okay, feel squeaky clean, removes make ups, but since after my internship end, acne naik and i revert back to Himalaya. so far pakai tak rasa putih ponn. mungkin kena pakai whole range untuk nampak putih kott. tapi orait je. decent cleaser. cleans well. tak trigger jerawat sedia ada. :P
5. Cetaphil - mother of all cleanser kott. baca review, banyak gila yang points pros of this holy cleanser. (*read my words: holy). takde laa page yang tak cakap cetaphil ni tak bagus. kalau ada ponn, satu atau dua blog yang contest cakap Cetaphil ni dangerous. tapi backed up by doctors comments and more than few Cetaphil-fags. ohh and if you notice, 2012 blogpost guwa ponn, guwa ada review jugak pasal cetaphil ni. dulu ada pakai untuk 1 bottle, pastu stop sebab gatal tangan nak revert balik ke Himalaya. so far, takde masalah dengan Cetaphil. kulit guwa tak sensitif lepas pakai, tak kering, tak oily, jerawat lessens. only the price is a lil pricey for a student like me, and the package! so big. not jamban- and travel-friendly. botol lagi besar dari bakul barang mandi itself. =.= tu antara reason kenapa guwa give up Cetaphil.
sekarang ni, since kulit guwa da kurang sensitif due to the fact that i consumed skin supplement (*primrose capsule), guwa ingat nak tukar cleanser. sebab current cleanser ni macam tak berapa nak menjadi da. tadi baca review pasal Cetaphil. ingat nak revert balik kepada Cetaphil sebab guwa ponn memang ada sebotol besaw lagi Cetaphil kat bilik. nak bagi orang rasa macam rugi sebab beli mahal. hehe. tapi takpe, research dulu Cetaphil ni. sebab da taknak da gamble kulit muka guwa. i'm now 22, and da tak mampu da nak generate kulit dengan cepat as i was during my prim 18 years old. err, my 2 cents, panjang pulak guwa tulis ni. kbai.
1. Safi Skincare Range - first cleanser guwa is Safi Balqis. the one that for whitening tuu. pernah try whole range of Safi Gamat, Safi Aloe Vera. semua Safi laa. start pakai masa Form 1 (*kott?). sebab mama yang introduce since start masuk high school, muka guwa berminyak gila macam kuali roti canai. and even can masak roti canai pakai minyak kat muka guwa ni haa. (*ayat taknak kalah. gebang itu perlu). antara yang terlama guwa pakai. dari form 1, stop sekejap time form 4, pastu sambung balik until degree sem 1. which is until i'm 19 years old. so far, oke je. decent cleanser. tak buat muka berminyak, tak rasa tegang, tak rasa drying ponn lepas basuh. tapi discontinue use masa sem 2 degree sebab kulit muka rasa panas and jerawat tumbuh macam pokok senduduk. sebab kulit rosak i guess. sem 2 da start kawad kaki and overdose of sun exposure. so the product when applied did stung my face, and resulted in more damages and breakouts. maybe Safi did cancels my sunblock. tu yang muka jadi teruk. mostly because tak sesuai dengan keadaan kulit guwa masa tu. and so, stop pakai and bermula laa perjalanan mencari "The Ultimate Cleanser".
2. Himalaya Neem Face Wash - oke, setakat guwa hidup berapa tahun kat atas planet bumi ni, guwa rasa ni antara cleanser yang terlama guwa pakai after Safi. guwa pakai masa Form 4. used 1 large tube of its cleanser untuk combat acne. before this, takde pimples sangat. just oily skin and Safi can handle oiliness quite well. but masa form 4, maybe stress duduk kat class pure science, learning those bios and chemy and darn physics, jerawat naik mengganas macam raksasa gorgon. gantung kejap Safi, and pakai Himalaya. well, quite good. in few days (*around 5 days), can see the differences already. jerawat da start turun, and kulit jadi sejuk (* ohh btw, i had this kulit rasa macam panas and tingly when i had pimples or acnes), so bila pakai Himalaya, kulit rasa sejuk je. this was during form 4 laa. sekarang guwa still pakai Himalaya. same range, same cleanser. but i just found out that the effectiveness changes. or it just me? same cleanser but da tak berapa nak berkesan. used for long time but why did i feel my pimples and my scars are getting visible? dulu rasa macam pimple scar tak berapa nak visible, but nowadays, pergi bilik member, they just 'faa, muka kau kenapa? macam makin teruk je?'. and i was ultimately speechless. sebab rasanya sem ni antara sem yang paling banyak guwa menjga kulit guwa. berapa round guwa beli lotion sebab nak jaga kulit. haha. and, mostly visible aftermath effects are, kulit guwa jadi sensitive gila beby, flushed face (*merah around the blush spot), scarring more visible, skin became taut and dry. the blush effects tuu guwa tak kisah sangat. sebab nampak cam comel laa pulak kulit pink pink beby gittew. (*comel? sila muntah pelangi sekarang). tapi what matter most is that shitty sensitive dry facial skin. which is teruk. bayangkan kau kulit kering, but kau tak boleh buat pape, not even tampal moisturizer sebab kulit akan react aggressively. not even can change to other cleanser, sebab kulit akan react and brokeout. bukan takat cleanser je, memang da tak boleh buat pape un. tak boleh pakai moisturizer, tak ley pakai bedak sejuk, tak ley pakai seaweed mask, takley nak spray thermal water etc. just boleh tepek bedak semata mata untuk pergi kuliah. it hurts my pride and face so much. TT_TT (*in fact, guwa even bagi separuh barang mekap guwa kat mama. hadn't have too much makeups though. only some eyeliners, powder cake and some bb creams, rarely used). lepas sensitif skin tragedy tuu, guwa still tak tukar lagi. sebab takde idea nak tukar brand apa, and fear of getting more sensitive if i change product. lagiponn, a few weeks after that tragedy, guwa pergi farmasi and beli Evening Primrose Oil capsule. so sensitivity and flare ups tuu significantly berkurang and guwa happy. sekarang still stick lagi dengan Himalaya, but reading reviews and getting ready to toss it up. ohh yes, this cleanser is gel-type, so it doesn't foam much. i did double rinse when i did use BB cream beforehand, just to feel this 'squeaky clean' feel. just to ensure traces of BB didn't clogged up my pores and broke my skin later.
3. Spray Type Mist - my first spray will be Bio Essence Miracle Bio Water. love it to the max! sangat berkesan. refreshing, set up my powder, reduce shine and makes my panda eyes less visible. since guwa pakai BB cream often (*mostly when i'm out having classes and tutors and replacement classes, depending on my mood), sometime tertepek banyak pulak BB creams nye. so end up having this fake and cakey face. so, nak set up balik BB tuu, guwa akan spray Bio Water ni. sekejap je, ka-ching! dewy faces! and guwa pakai lepas berjemur matahari. and malam malam kalau malas nak letak seaweed mask, guwa spray je benda ni. and kadang kadang kalau malas, spray, tepek powder johnson tu pastu jalan. convenient an? just spray and go. sebabkan terlampau konvinien tulaa benda ni cepat habis. tempting dohh. even muka tak berminyak ponn rasa nak spray je sebab nak rasa sejuk and glowing dewy effects tu. sekarang, benda ni da 3 minggu habis, takde duit nak beli. sobs. and the sad fact is, guwa gamble beli SimplySiti White & Detox Mist Toner over this one when i had money to buy it. and i regret for not buying Miracle Water. haritu, keluar beli stok makanan dekat SACC. then masuk Watson. niat memang nak beli Miracle Water but then, tengok shelf alamak.. RM23.90. takde offer. first buy dulu which was 3 months back then, bought it at RM19.90 dekat Fahrenheit. masa tuu keluar dengan Encik Ehem. tapi rasa macam mahal je dekat SACC ni an. pastu terpandang pulak SimplySiti ni. packaging cantik, pink gittew, besaw murah pulak (*100ml for Rm19). guwa ponn ka-ching, beli and pakai. and, i'm not into it. menyesal sungguh. the mist is kinda sticky on my face, it didn't make my skin dewy nor refresh it. all i felt is oiliness and stickiness. maybe sebab content dia differ with my other products kott. da terbiasa pakai thermal water, tetiba spray mist yang contains all niacinamide, green tea, honey tuu, so kulit guwa rasa berat. and i felt unclean. and zits starts to popped out, again. during this time, i went on vacation with my family around area Pangkor and Cameron Highland. cuaca agak sejuk and banyak exposed to aircond. spray this mist, but still went sticky and face went shiny all over like sambal nasi lemak terlebih minyak. don't like it and not going to repurchase it. but still, i favor SimplySiti product. just this range, doesn't suit me. better opt for the old thermal water kott.
4. Loreal Perfect White Milky Cleanser - best. used 2 tubes of this. ohh first time beli masa kat Giant seksyen 7, masa tu keluar makan dengan Ehem. singgah guardian and nampak product ni on sale. since cleanser ponn da habis, and nak cepat, rembat jelaa mende alah ni. malas nak cari mana Himalaya. ohh yes, its a foaming cleanser but i wonder, ni lagi cepat habis dari my Himalaya gel cleanser. sebab tu sempat guna sampai 2 tube. applied too much kott? loreal is okay, feel squeaky clean, removes make ups, but since after my internship end, acne naik and i revert back to Himalaya. so far pakai tak rasa putih ponn. mungkin kena pakai whole range untuk nampak putih kott. tapi orait je. decent cleaser. cleans well. tak trigger jerawat sedia ada. :P
5. Cetaphil - mother of all cleanser kott. baca review, banyak gila yang points pros of this holy cleanser. (*read my words: holy). takde laa page yang tak cakap cetaphil ni tak bagus. kalau ada ponn, satu atau dua blog yang contest cakap Cetaphil ni dangerous. tapi backed up by doctors comments and more than few Cetaphil-fags. ohh and if you notice, 2012 blogpost guwa ponn, guwa ada review jugak pasal cetaphil ni. dulu ada pakai untuk 1 bottle, pastu stop sebab gatal tangan nak revert balik ke Himalaya. so far, takde masalah dengan Cetaphil. kulit guwa tak sensitif lepas pakai, tak kering, tak oily, jerawat lessens. only the price is a lil pricey for a student like me, and the package! so big. not jamban- and travel-friendly. botol lagi besar dari bakul barang mandi itself. =.= tu antara reason kenapa guwa give up Cetaphil.
sekarang ni, since kulit guwa da kurang sensitif due to the fact that i consumed skin supplement (*primrose capsule), guwa ingat nak tukar cleanser. sebab current cleanser ni macam tak berapa nak menjadi da. tadi baca review pasal Cetaphil. ingat nak revert balik kepada Cetaphil sebab guwa ponn memang ada sebotol besaw lagi Cetaphil kat bilik. nak bagi orang rasa macam rugi sebab beli mahal. hehe. tapi takpe, research dulu Cetaphil ni. sebab da taknak da gamble kulit muka guwa. i'm now 22, and da tak mampu da nak generate kulit dengan cepat as i was during my prim 18 years old. err, my 2 cents, panjang pulak guwa tulis ni. kbai.
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