Friday, January 10, 2014

notes of nonsense #124: history of a drama princess with her skincare

assalam. oke, lama gila rasa private belog. tak rasa nak menulis ekceli. and taknak stalkers tertunggu tunggu bila guwa nak write post. sebab tu pivate blog. tapi since end of sem is around the corner and fact that now i'm having final exams, which is i'm not having classes and nak mengurangkan kebosanan asek nak baca buku and study (*study ke?), terlintas laa pulak nak buat timeline of my history with skincare. ala ala product review jugak laa. takde gambar, sebab malas nak transfer pictures dari google nor henfon. :P

1. Safi Skincare Range - first cleanser guwa is Safi Balqis. the one that for whitening tuu. pernah try whole range of Safi Gamat, Safi Aloe Vera. semua Safi laa. start pakai masa Form 1 (*kott?). sebab mama yang introduce since start masuk high school, muka guwa berminyak gila macam kuali roti canai. and even can masak roti canai pakai minyak kat muka guwa ni haa. (*ayat taknak kalah. gebang itu perlu). antara yang terlama guwa pakai. dari form 1, stop sekejap time form 4, pastu sambung balik until degree sem 1. which is until i'm 19 years old. so far, oke je. decent cleanser. tak buat muka berminyak, tak rasa tegang, tak rasa drying ponn lepas basuh. tapi discontinue use masa sem 2 degree sebab kulit muka rasa panas and jerawat tumbuh macam pokok senduduk. sebab kulit rosak i guess. sem 2 da start kawad kaki and overdose of sun exposure. so the product when applied did stung my face, and resulted in more damages and breakouts. maybe Safi did cancels my sunblock. tu yang muka jadi teruk. mostly because tak sesuai dengan keadaan kulit guwa masa tu. and so, stop pakai and bermula laa perjalanan mencari "The Ultimate Cleanser".

2. Himalaya Neem Face Wash - oke, setakat guwa hidup berapa tahun kat atas planet bumi ni, guwa rasa ni antara cleanser yang terlama guwa pakai after Safi. guwa pakai masa Form 4. used 1 large tube of its cleanser untuk combat acne. before this, takde pimples sangat. just oily skin and Safi can handle oiliness quite well. but masa form 4, maybe stress duduk kat class pure science, learning those bios and chemy and darn physics, jerawat naik mengganas macam raksasa gorgon. gantung kejap Safi, and pakai Himalaya. well, quite good. in few days (*around 5 days), can see the differences already. jerawat da start turun, and kulit jadi sejuk (* ohh btw, i had this kulit rasa macam panas and tingly when i had pimples or acnes), so bila pakai Himalaya, kulit rasa sejuk je. this was during form 4 laa. sekarang guwa still pakai Himalaya. same range, same cleanser. but i just found out that the effectiveness changes. or it just me? same cleanser but da tak berapa nak berkesan. used for long time but why did i feel my pimples and my scars are getting visible? dulu rasa macam pimple scar tak berapa nak visible, but nowadays, pergi bilik member, they just 'faa, muka kau kenapa? macam makin teruk je?'. and i was ultimately speechless. sebab rasanya sem ni antara sem yang paling banyak guwa menjga kulit guwa. berapa round guwa beli lotion sebab nak jaga kulit. haha. and, mostly visible aftermath effects are, kulit guwa jadi sensitive gila beby, flushed face (*merah around the blush spot), scarring more visible, skin became taut and dry. the blush effects tuu guwa tak kisah sangat. sebab nampak cam comel laa pulak kulit pink pink beby gittew. (*comel? sila muntah pelangi sekarang). tapi what matter most is that shitty sensitive dry facial skin. which is teruk. bayangkan kau kulit kering, but kau tak boleh buat pape, not even tampal moisturizer sebab kulit akan react aggressively. not even can change to other cleanser, sebab kulit akan react and brokeout. bukan takat cleanser je, memang da tak boleh buat pape un. tak boleh pakai moisturizer, tak ley pakai bedak sejuk, tak ley pakai seaweed mask, takley nak spray thermal water etc. just boleh tepek bedak semata mata untuk pergi kuliah. it hurts my pride and face so much. TT_TT (*in fact, guwa even bagi separuh barang mekap guwa kat mama. hadn't have too much makeups though. only some eyeliners, powder cake and some bb creams, rarely used). lepas sensitif skin tragedy tuu, guwa still tak tukar lagi. sebab takde idea nak tukar brand apa, and fear of getting more sensitive if i change product. lagiponn, a few weeks after that tragedy, guwa pergi farmasi and beli Evening Primrose Oil capsule. so sensitivity and flare ups tuu significantly berkurang and guwa happy. sekarang still stick lagi dengan Himalaya, but reading reviews and getting ready to toss it up. ohh yes, this cleanser is gel-type, so it doesn't foam much. i did double rinse when i did use BB cream beforehand, just to feel this 'squeaky clean' feel. just to ensure traces of BB didn't clogged up my pores and broke my skin later.

3. Spray Type Mist - my first spray will be Bio Essence Miracle Bio Water. love it to the max! sangat berkesan. refreshing, set up my powder, reduce shine and makes my panda eyes less visible. since guwa pakai BB cream often (*mostly when i'm out having classes and tutors and replacement classes, depending on my mood), sometime tertepek banyak pulak BB creams nye. so end up having this fake and cakey face. so, nak set up balik BB tuu, guwa akan spray Bio Water ni. sekejap je, ka-ching! dewy faces! and guwa pakai lepas berjemur matahari. and malam malam kalau malas nak letak seaweed mask, guwa spray je benda ni. and kadang kadang kalau malas, spray, tepek powder johnson tu pastu jalan. convenient an? just spray and go. sebabkan terlampau konvinien tulaa benda ni cepat habis. tempting dohh. even muka tak berminyak ponn rasa nak spray je sebab nak rasa sejuk and glowing dewy effects tu. sekarang, benda ni da 3 minggu habis, takde duit nak beli. sobs. and the sad fact is, guwa gamble beli SimplySiti White & Detox Mist Toner over this one when i had money to buy it. and i regret for not buying Miracle Water. haritu, keluar beli stok makanan dekat SACC. then masuk Watson. niat memang nak beli Miracle Water but then, tengok shelf alamak.. RM23.90. takde offer. first buy dulu which was 3 months back then, bought it at RM19.90 dekat Fahrenheit. masa tuu keluar dengan Encik Ehem. tapi rasa macam mahal je dekat SACC ni an. pastu terpandang pulak SimplySiti ni. packaging cantik, pink gittew, besaw murah pulak (*100ml for Rm19). guwa ponn ka-ching, beli and pakai. and, i'm not into it. menyesal sungguh. the mist is kinda sticky on my face, it didn't make my skin dewy nor refresh it. all i felt is oiliness and stickiness. maybe sebab content dia differ with my other products kott. da terbiasa pakai thermal water, tetiba spray mist yang contains all niacinamide, green tea, honey tuu, so kulit guwa rasa berat. and i felt unclean. and zits starts to popped out, again. during this time, i went on vacation with my family around area Pangkor and Cameron Highland. cuaca agak sejuk and banyak exposed to aircond. spray this mist, but still went sticky and face went shiny all over like sambal nasi lemak terlebih minyak. don't like it and not going to repurchase it. but still, i favor SimplySiti product. just this range, doesn't suit me. better opt for the old thermal water kott.

4. Loreal Perfect White Milky Cleanser - best. used 2 tubes of this. ohh first time beli masa kat Giant seksyen 7, masa tu keluar makan dengan Ehem. singgah guardian and nampak product ni on sale. since cleanser ponn da habis, and nak cepat, rembat jelaa mende alah ni. malas nak cari mana Himalaya. ohh yes, its a foaming cleanser but i wonder, ni lagi cepat habis dari my Himalaya gel cleanser. sebab tu sempat guna sampai 2 tube. applied too much kott? loreal is okay, feel squeaky clean, removes make ups, but since after my internship end, acne naik and i revert back to Himalaya. so far pakai tak rasa putih ponn. mungkin kena pakai whole range untuk nampak putih kott. tapi orait je. decent cleaser. cleans well. tak trigger jerawat sedia ada. :P

5. Cetaphil - mother of all cleanser kott. baca review, banyak gila yang points pros of this holy cleanser. (*read my words: holy). takde laa page yang tak cakap cetaphil ni tak bagus. kalau ada ponn, satu atau dua blog yang contest cakap Cetaphil ni dangerous. tapi backed up by doctors comments and more than few Cetaphil-fags. ohh and if you notice, 2012 blogpost guwa ponn, guwa ada review jugak pasal cetaphil ni. dulu ada pakai untuk 1 bottle, pastu stop sebab gatal tangan nak revert balik ke Himalaya. so far, takde masalah dengan Cetaphil. kulit guwa tak sensitif lepas pakai, tak kering, tak oily, jerawat lessens. only the price is a lil pricey for a student like me, and the package! so big. not jamban- and travel-friendly. botol lagi besar dari bakul barang mandi itself. =.= tu antara reason kenapa guwa give up Cetaphil.

sekarang ni, since kulit guwa da kurang sensitif due to the fact that i consumed skin supplement (*primrose capsule), guwa ingat nak tukar cleanser. sebab current cleanser ni macam tak berapa nak menjadi da. tadi baca review pasal Cetaphil. ingat nak revert balik kepada Cetaphil sebab guwa ponn memang ada sebotol besaw lagi Cetaphil kat bilik. nak bagi orang rasa macam rugi sebab beli mahal. hehe. tapi takpe, research dulu Cetaphil ni. sebab da taknak da gamble kulit muka guwa. i'm now 22, and da tak mampu da nak generate kulit dengan cepat as i was during my prim 18 years old. err, my 2 cents, panjang pulak guwa tulis ni. kbai.

*a gist of me. just if you wonder how do i looked nowadays. and saja nak tunjuk, guwa da hantar FYP. mohon jeles. :P*

Monday, November 4, 2013

notes of nonsense #123: pesan dari hati seorang drunker

"aurat tuu tolong jaga. once da tutup, tutup betul betul. aku taktaw camne nak explain dengan cara terbaik, sebab aku sendiri ponn bukan lelaki yang baik yang boleh lead kau. and aku taknak kau jadi macam aku. so, aku nak kau jaga betul betul diri kau. jangan jadi Yahoodee. macam aku. jangan pernah terlintas ponn nak jadi macam aku."

he's not actually a drunker. he never drunk, but he drinks. cocktail, mocktail, tonic water and cola, rum, gin, jolly shandy, wine. anything. hardcore clubber. still he gave the best advice ever. and the sad fact is, he's my bestfriend that i failed to change.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

notes of nonsense #122: things i fear most

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile


Smile - Charlie Chaplin

but terasa nak letak lagu Liyana Fizi - Light Writing dlm post ni. suits my moods more kott. ekceli, rasa sebak. sebab tengok orang da kahwin. yes, imma silent stalker. guwa kenal dia, tapi guwa tak pernah bercakap dengan dia, tak pernah tegur sapa, but i care. as a friend.

ekceli guwa takut. takut apa yang ada di depan mata guwa, were not meant for me in my future. i'm afraid i will commit to wrong person, submit my time to wrong person, exposing my heart to wrong person. guwa takut. guwa takut apa yang guwa pilih akan menjadi sia sia. sebab guwa tengok depan mata guwa sendiri, couple 8 tahun. planning nak kahwin dengan orang yang dia pilih since 8 tahun lepas but in the end, turned to be, 8 years of their relationship was meaningless. and she married someone else recently.

and ada sorang distant friend guwa (*distant ke? entah. tinggal sama sama but we seldom talk. ohh lupa. guwa kan silent stalker. :P). oke berbalik kepada issue distant friend guwa, she married when we were in sem 3. guwa ingat lagi, masa tu guwa baru balik final exam sem 3 and she's baru nak pergi exam, she's wearing cream colored kebaya which i guessed was her baju nikah, which inai still merah dekat jari and she shone beautifully. like butterfly's wings flicked by sunshine in spring morning after rain. guwa envy, guwa rasa sangat, errr jealous. i'm envy of her happiness. yelah, dia cerita dia kenal suami dia 3 months, and then terus kahwin. sweet aite? but then, recently masa guwa mula mula start sem 5 aritu, faculty mate guwa datang bagitaw, she was ex-classmate of my distant friend that went for that sweet early marriage, yang sebenarnya, that distan tfriend, da cerai. guwa terkejut beruk. beruk ponn tak terkejut macam guwa. err. sumpah speechless. i was like, blur sekejap.  idk betul ke tak cerita tuu. and if betul ponn, malas laa komen. bukan guwa terlibat ponn kann. kang jadi berdosa lak.

from that incident then i was like.. why why why? sedangkan dia yang bercinta, berkahwin, da rasa alam rumahtangga ponn boleh bercerai, apa lagi me yang just a puny relationship. orang berkahwin, dilanda bah, terus berpisah. guwa wonder how it will be going with me? mampu ke guwa bertahan? sedangkan bukan ada ties ponn yang bound guwa untuk commit to that one single person that i put so close to my heart?

yes, perancangan Allah adalah yang terbaik. kalau ada jodoh tak kemana, kalau takde jodoh mungkin akan ada yang lebih baik. i know. apa yang guwa risaukan is, how strong i will bounce back to face the reality. i'll fall, hard. and i think it will take time for me to recover back. i'm so scared. what should i do? ottoke..